Ever listen to what you think-say to yourself...yesterday was one of those challenging days as I decided to try to print off a rough draft of our 60 pages of poems....which are two to a page in landscape mode and printed on two sides. I couldn't get my printer at home to do it, so I had this conversation with myself..."there's got to be a solution to this, ask someone for help...who?...I'll ask Allen" (my husband). He tried but got frustrated so that was no solution...
Then my self talk or thoughts were "call for Epson support." Well, that's an unfinished story as the young man there listened and tried a few things then said "hold the line while I try something else"...I was on my cell phone, so I sat there listening to silence while I tried a few things on my computer and even dug out the manual. That's real desperation, reading the manual-who does that? But I didn't find much there. Finally the kid comes back and says "send me your file and I'll see if I can print it out." Well, it's now eighteen hours later and no word from him yet...
In the meantime, I tried to solve the problem by going over to our church's family history center where the booklets will be printed to see if that printer would cooperate. It's the same kind of printer that my neighbor uses and I had his printing instructions, but they didn't work. So the struggle continued with lots of negative self talk inside..."you're not going to be able to do this" vs. "don't give up, there's got to be a solution!" After many urgent silent prayers for help, I got the idea to "check the print settings at the church, then go over to my neighbor's printer and compare them." That somewhat solved the problem. So hopefully, it will all work out in the end. What a lot of talking, reasoning, praying and reassuring went on inside myself yesterday, I'm exhausted...
Do you talk to yourself? If so, what do you say?