Every once in awhile, I find myself
being an observer, watching my life
as if I were on STAGE and others were
actors in some SCRIPT that isn't familiar.
I don't feel the emotions but watch
almost detached and feel my mind
having a DIALOGUE all of its own.
I wonder why she did that or didn't.
Then I check myself to see how
a certain action AFFECTED me and
am surprised that it didn't because
I am just a DETACHED observer.
In a way, there is SAFETY in that
but there is also a certain amount
of DEADNESS, not being in the
moment but waiting for something
else to happen. For the positive
feelings to overwhelm me and
LIFT me to a higher plane of life.
I wonder, how long will I WAIT?