Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Optimism


A regular friend, suddenly you were gone,
replaced by your negative twin pessimism.
Nothing is the same, life has reversed.
Challenges have become unconquerable
obstacles, discouragement is the norm.



I miss my former attitude and want
to restore it. So I take pen to paper
to try to find understanding of me.
Writing will help me to make the change
back to viewing life in a more positive way.


Not just reacting to others but acting,
seeing life more clearly, choosing wiser.
Why doesn't matter, but only the battle
to overcome and conquer myself daily
will yield positive results and relief now.
(Now I'm back on track, wiser for the detour!)

Monday, August 2, 2010

Touch of FALL

We finally have our monsoon clouds with a promise of coolness in the air. Fall is getting closer although our temperatures are still above 100 degrees each day. No measurable rain yet but there have been flash floods within 20 miles of us as sudden downpours overwhelm small gullies and dry stream beds. Kind of like LIFE at times.



















I'm reading another book by Julia Cameron of "Artist's Way" fame-it's #3 in the series entitled "FINDING WATER: The Art of PERSERVERANCE." Wow-just what I needed at this thirsty time of my life-the title says it all. Wonderful thoughts, quotes and suggestions for tapping back into the wellspring of our lives:

(1) Writing daily MORNING PAGES to get out on paper all the negative thoughts/voices that run rampant in our heads and stop us from tuning ourselves to our Creator and quiet inner voices that can give inspiration and guidance to our lives. (2) ARTIST DATES-weekly solo expeditions of adventure to pursue interests or find new ideas/interests to add to our life. Just those two principles are enough to give me HOPE to continue the journey as I have been so weighed down by the PAST and unresolved emotions/situations lately.

Some memorable quotes: "We never know the worth of water till the well is dry." English proverb; "Take care of each moment and you will take care of all time." Buddha; and "Every moment of one's existence one is growing into more or retreating into less. One is always living a little more or dying a little bit." Norman Mailer.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Article #111 Survival Mode

Brazilians are friendly people and helped us adjust to their culture and lifestyle. I discovered that most families had at least one maid to assist them with household tasks. Since I didn’t particularly relish doing our laundry by hand on a scrub board in cold water, we hired a woman to do our laundry for $7/month. Then when I realized that we both needed to teach classes to bring in some money, we hired another person to help with childcare and cleaning our apartment.

With our new Brazilian acquaintances as references, we found Theresa who eventually moved into our one bedroom apartment into a small lean-to off our patio. She was a devout Seventh-Day Adventist. Although illiterate, she would faithfully thumb through her bible each evening. Watching the two youngest during the mornings while my husband and I taught classes and our oldest son was off to kindergarten, Theresa called them “meu filhos” or in English “my sons.” Under her loving care, our little guys enjoyed going outside to the nearby park to see the iguanas. They played together in our small apartment and learned to speak Portuguese from interacting with her.

Our oldest son was enrolled at the nearby Pan American School in the mornings where classes were taught in English. I taught macramĂ© and children’s dance to pay for his tuition. From playing with his classmates, he too quickly picked up Portuguese. Our daily routine began with a trip to the bakery for hot bread, then a simple breakfast of reconstituted powdered milk (which was quite tasty), and wonderful tropical fruits: mangos, pineapples, and papayas which were readily available at open air markets. How fun it was to buy a stock of small green bananas to take home and eat as they ripened. One tasty dish we all loved was mashed avocados with sugar and lemon juice.

Without any modern supermarkets nearby, cooking was a real chore. Meat was not refrigerated, and there was no hamburger. Fish was expensive and only chicken was available for a reasonable price. Our maid didn’t want to cook, so I was “it.” Having another person working at your side most of the time I found was a real adjustment, and trying to communicate with her in Portuguese was a daunting challenge. Theresa loved to tell visitors in Portuguese that the “senora nao fala (doesn’t speak) portuguĂ©s,” but I did understand that much.